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I don't understand what's happening. A couple of days ago, I was fine. Living without you. But now I can't get you off my mind. There's so much going on all around me and I somehow find you in everything around me and I have no explanation why. I'm depressed and angry that I let you go. It hurts to breathe and the tests at the hospital are showing no results so I have to go to a cardiologist. Fun. My dreams are beginning to make me cry. This will be the 5th dream I've had of you in a row. In that dream, I confessed to your brother how much I liked you, but knew the relationship was going nowhere. He told me I should tell you because I had nothing to lose. But I'm afraid I'll never get to see you again. But if I do, I've made up my mind to tell you everything and be honest with how I feel. I love you and I only ever loved you.
Compared with what I feel now, every other time I felt I had a crush it was completely false. No one else cared like you. I never felt sick without someone like you. I don't know why, but I can't breathe right without you. I haven't been at school for 3 days and everyone of those days that passed, I thought of you. I wrote the most idiotic things to express the way I feel. No one will accept us. My father doesn't like you and I'm sure my mother has no oppinion. When I was with you, it was the happiest time of my life, no matter how breif. Out till all hours of the morning. Staying up on the phone, talking to you watching the sun come up from opposite sides of the country when you had nothing better to do, then going back to sleep when it was all over. Slow dancing to Billie Holiday. But it's all over now.
I remember so many small moments with us and your many failed attempts at trying to say something to me. I told you I liked you alot and when you passed out on my lap, I told you how I thought I was falling in love with you. I feel so lonely and at the end of my wits. I could go on writing forever about you. It's times like this I hate you because of the way you make me feel, yet I love you because you're the only one that ever could get me to feel anything. I've even had dreams about our lives together, down to the very things we'll fight about. It's strange to look over the photographs and wonder if we could've been something more, let alone if I'd ever see you again. I wish we could choose who we love. I know in time, you'll get over me, if you haven't already. But I can just never forget you. You were the only one for me. Your raven hair, green eyes that look brown depending on the light. I've never seen anyone like you before.
I could write page upon page of things to you that'd you'd probably never even see. My friends don't know anything about any of this. Sometimes I feel alone and wish I could hate you even for a moment, but I can't bring myself to inflict anything on you. I've already heard rumors about you and a girl named Olivia. She always was better looking than me. But if I could get a sign showing me that you were utterly and truely happy, I would leave you be. Because for once, I'm not going to lie - not even to make myself feel better - your happiness means more to me than my own. I miss you.
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