I Want You To Know by Regina Pate

I can remember being a little girl
being fascinated by the world
Everyday a new adventure
A bran d new day to explore
Everyday more eventful
than the previous day before

I couldn't wait till morning time
I didn't want to go to bed
But I was a good little girl
I always did what my father said

I was daddy's little girl when mommy was away
I thought he was my hero
but I always got in his way

I know my daddy loved me in his own special way
But when he went to prison, I didn't want to stay
My mom was already missin'
My dad was always skitsin'
And I was only seven
When my daddy went to prison

So there I was at his bosses house
Aunts, uncles, next of kin,
and even if the weren't they was
And anybody who was in that house
Had to be on drugs

So when their friends from Dallas
Showed up unprepared
They were suppose to take me with them
But the meth had got them scared

So then my aunt and uncle
And my cousin from San Antone
Came all the way to Houston
And asked to take me home

He got on his knees and looked me in my eyes
He said he was pleased to meet me
And the the woman cries

He grabbed her hand and squeezed it
and gently calmed her down a bit
Which was kinda a good thing
Cuz there son was gonna throw a fit

But he didn't which really took me by surprise
Because he was his mothers baby
And he hates when she cries

I wasn't really nervous
they asked to spend the night
I just thought they were some strangers
Just waitin to leave till the day light

I didn't really understand that I was movin
I did it all the time
Bit I didn't know that's what I was really doin'

Everywhere I went
I was being passed around
But you know what don't trip
Cuz I made it safe and sound

I was born into this life
I even liked it how it was
I didn't know it wasn't normal
To watch your parents skits on drugs

I love them
I love my life
I loved it then
Even the strife

I learned to disobey
I strive to get in trouble
I was havin' to much fun

Nothin really bothered me
I accepted what it was
I thought that they lied to me
When they said that their on drugs

But when I left
I was only suppose to spend the night
Two weeks is the most at a time
and somewhere it occurred to me
They were never gonna come
They told me they abandoned me
and that they rescued me because
of where I'm from,
and so they adopted me because of who I was

my sister was four years older
but they decided to take her too
They decided they knew what's best for me
And told me what to do

So maybe only now you see
Why I always doubt myself
And why I always second guess myself
when I am hangin in a crowd

I use to love myself
I was like Eve in the garden
I didn't know that I was naked
Until you took it upon yourself
I thought that I was really spacial
and really fun to be around
It didn't bother me they molested me
Or that I could have almost drowned

But when I asked if they'd have sex with me
They looked liked I was mad
They took me down and ran test on me
And told me what they found

I never felt bad for who I was
until I saw me with their eyes
Only then my life I despised

When they started judging me
and telling me
that I was bad
I felt like they were ashamed of me
and I always made them mad
But after a while
I learned to stick it out
To keep on livin
I cannot quit
and say I loose

I am not the one who chooses
I must live for what
who knows this
Only God, he controls us
and he said
"Life ain't all a bed of roses

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I Want You To Know
by Regina Pate (Age: 29)
copyright 05-19-2006

Age Rating: 13 to 127

Prose-n-Poetry.com

I Want You To Know by Regina Pate (Age: 29) copyright 05-19-2006 Age Rating: 13 to 127

I Want You To Know
by Regina Pate (Age: 29)
copyright 05-19-2006

Age Rating: 13 to 127