This was written on the 18.01.04

When something's important,
Or means alot,
If it hurts me,
Reminding me...
It's never gone.

My friends fighting,
People's sayings
Love and hate,
Pain and fear,
It's all in my arms.
God I wish I could confide,
not just in a book and pen,
And the insanity in my head.

Why was I made to love?
I'm not strong enough,
Please give me strength!
I will talk, promise I will,
When I learn to trust,
When my heart builds a wall,
No emotions to be seen.

I hate pity,
I hate attention,
I have desires, only for one person,
I will learn to control,
And hide again,
Just like I did before.