Life is the elixir,
my lover,
and I could never have enough.

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I have tasted the sweetest wine
my lips have ever imagined,
stood on perilious ledges,
and gazed at the beautiful deserts.
I've touched the clouds on the Rocky Mountain's peaks,
and lived to tell my story,
I've drinken from the cup of life
and I haven't even gotten started.

I've felt the throbbing in my chest
of love and life fulfilled.
I've known the beauty of flying free,
existing for only oneself.
My feet stand planted on the ground
by my head has pierced the clouds,
I see clearly through the fog of dreams
and now know my own way out.

I hold firmly to the simple truth
that I can change the world.
I am one small soul, but a leader still
and I will fix myself.
I will rise not like a pheonix,
but instead I will be the strongest pine.
I will hold true for years to come
and tempt others to take the climb.

My arms will grow and multiply
till I can grab all of the stars.
I will share them with all the ones I love
and I will see places near and far.
I will conquor the world that's waiting
and I will leave it better in my wake.
I will be the capitain who's ship causes waves
that can only manage to aid.

My tenacity holds me strongly
and I hold the future within my reach,
and my hands have grabbed for all their worth
and I'm living this life for me.
I could be the president,
a mother, a leader, a friend.
I can be whoever I want to be,
and I will still be me in the end.

I will sacrifice my bad habbits,
I will hold sacred the good I must leave,
to grasp the new beginnings,
to move forward into the sea.
I have let go of land to cast off
up into the boundless sky,
and for the first time
I've spread my wings--
for the first time,
I fly.

For I am who I make,
my future belongs to me.
I am not a victim of circumstance,
and I am not a victim of me.
I refuse to be chained by my habbits,
I refuse to live life drifting at sea.
From this day forth,
I take control.
For my life belongs to me.

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I just moved into my new place in Kansas, and I've decided to change my life and start anew. No more junk food, healthier living, healthier life, and a life lived for me. No more anti-depressants (I'm over two months without, and loving it), no more dependency on sleeping pills...

...no more still considering myself an addict.

I'm changing my "I am's" and changing myself. And I love it.