Today November 1st a day that was going to be worth so much to me and Kimberly it was the day, we were going to join our lives in holly matrimony. It was the day we were looking forward to so much we couldn’t wait for the day to come that we would get married. We talked about it so many times who to invite how to dress and where it would take place.

But that horrible day in July she was taken away from me. Now the day we would have started a life together making it the happiest day ever. But with Kimberly gone I have changed I’m not the same I have started to drink to help the pain inside. I have become lost and no longer had sight of my life because I lived so much with anger as my drive.

This day November 1st I hatch my cocoon and have decided to make this the day I change my life for the better. I set my mind on the prize on the fact that Kimberly believed I could fight and change my ways to become a police officer one day. This is the day I have decided to change my mind, body, spirit, and soul. I will work harder than ever before starting on a diet and working out and with my eyes on the prize and my new found ambition and drive.

I decided today is going to be the day that my life will change for this day will be good for something Kimberly would have wanted the best for me. In her honor and memory, I will not let life get a hold of me. I will rise up and get a hold of my life and change it and instead of life kicking me in the butt. I will ride it above the line of being a sad no good drunk and prove to everyone I’m no punk.

I have a drive from within my life and will start to do something great in the memory of Kimberly on what should have been our wedding day. It was going to be a day of starting a new life as a family and her being truly my wife. When she was taken away I slipped and got messed up in the head but now I am bouncing back.

To make this day mean something to me and I just hope Kimberly is watching over me to see this change to see this drive to do what only she supported me to do. To become a cop one day diet, work out, go back to school and change my life and dedicate it all to my love who should have been my wife on this day. I love you Kimberly Emery R.I.P.