20 Year Old Eyes
Age Rating: 4 +
Here I sit, I am 20 years old,
When I look back, I see my past unfold.
Sometimes youth is looked upon as unwise,
But in 20 years, I've seen quite a bit through these eyes.
I've loved with all my heart,
Had my world ripped apart.
I've laughed 'til I cried,
I've broken rules and lied.
Countless nights of crying myself to sleep,
Many promises made, some I did not keep.
I've been laughed at, made fun of, some to my face,
I've had days where I feel I'm all over the place.
I've made great friendships, that will always last,
Some, we've had hard times but that's all in the past.
I wrecked my first car and felt like a fool,
Despite all my doubts I finished high school.
I discovered I can't sing, although I still try,
I've wasted some days and watched them go by.
I've sat at the beach warming in the sun,
I've walked through the rain, deciding not to run.
I've stayed up 'til five listening to a friend cry,
I've done things I wished I hadn't, and asked myself why.
I've seen people make mistakes, one by one,
Leaving me asking, "What have they done?"
I've loved another with all I had for seven years,
Most of those feelings replaced with tears.
I've cried with others, for others, sometimes for me,
I've done it alone mostly, but sometimes they see.
I've written two books that I hope one day,
Will be on a store shelf, but who can say?
I've given advice to those who've come to me,
Some smile and say thank you, and others get angry.
I've watched people make bad decisions as I made my own,
Some I find stay the same, others from them have grown.
My opinions can be strong,
And sometimes...they're wrong.
Some people have died, others have walked away,
Whatever the case, I miss them everyday.
I've been kissed and in love, though it was taken away,
I've learned to be wiser, and get stronger each day.
I've fought and been wrong, I've fought and been right,
I've gone to bed with guilt, and tossed and turned all night.
I've hit many lows,
For reasons few know.
I've cut myself, just to watch myself bleed,
It wasn't right to do, but at the time I saw the need.
I've said yes when I should have said no,
For reasons I've yet to know.
I've said no when I should have said yes,
But I can pull it together even when I'm a mess.
I've seen things I did not want to see,
I've learned a lot about reality.
Sometimes it's bad, but bits can be good,
This is something at first, I misunderstood.
See, I've seen a lot through these 20 year old eyes,
Now, I really wouldn't claim to be wise.
But I've learned a lot looking at who I've been,
There's good moments in there, but I won't do it again.
I like knowing what I know now,
The lessons are hard but I made it somehow.
There's more headed my way,
Something new each day.
I look ahead, but all I see,
Are fuzzy images of what could be.
But I keep walking straight ahead, walk forward to the unknown,
And sometimes look back through 20 year old eyes, at how much I've grown.